Where I screw up

It's easy to talk about what you are doing right. You know, when you are working with 'the plan', doing the exercise, eating the right stuff. It's harder to confess when you aren't . When you blatantly know that you aren't.

Let me just say real quick the things that I know are stopping me from seeing the scale budge:
-red wine
-white wine
-cider (alcohol)
-chocolate

I like wine. My husband and I enjoy sharing a bottle of wine with dinner. Unfortunately at the moment we have a massive tin of chocolates in the house that his very sweet 85 year old grandma gave us for Christmas. During the day I do really well with my breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner. And then comes the choice. Would I like some wine or some chocolate. Or in my case recently, both. Each chocolate is about 50 calories. If I eat one, I want two at least. With wine, I at least want to share a bottle. So that's a good 200calories.

I know I'm going on and on. I know I have choices to make. I know that through making these choices I will either:
a.) see the me I want to see in May 2009
b.) be very dissappointed with the me I see in May 2009

May 2009 is when I'll be flying to Texas with my hubby and his brother. We'll be staying with my folks for a few days, then heading to Austin for one of my best friends weddings, then the group of us friends will be heading to the Frio River to float and camp for the week. I'm fine with being in a one-piece suit, but I at least want to look decent in it.

Right now all my flab centers around my middle region. I'm very much an apple shape. The more my weight goes up, the bigger my waistline. I've always had decent legs, and when I'm doing well, my legs are damn hot. I want damn hot legs in May.

So lay off the wine and chocolate, Julie!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know, I know.....