So a girl I follow on YouTube, Chrystalms81, posted a video response to my last video. What she said really motivated me to just deal with this as one day at a time...so that's what I'm going to do instead of letting the big impossible amount of weight loss that needs to happen just intimidate me. So here we go...
Breakfast
212 cereal
31 skim milk
243 TOTAL
Lunch
TBD
Dinner
TBD
Monday, 19 January 2009
Tuesday, 13 January 2009
foodie
I find weekends difficult. Monday-Friday I can deal with. But then Friday night shows up and all I want to do is treat myself. Where did this mentality come from?? I find it so easy to make up excuses as to why I should be allowed chinese food or pizza or whatever.... which is fine if it was every once and awhile, but every friday and saturday night is something totally different.
Dave and I are going to Stratford-upon-Avon this weekend to see the Royal Shakespeare Company perform Romeo and Juliet. We booked a room at a quaint b&b. And of course I've been hounding the internet for the best restaurants in the area. Dave and I really enjoy going out for a nice meal. I like to think I'm an amateur 'foodie'. Is that the correct term?
Anyways my point is that why can't I be doing lots of research of things to do in Stratford besides eating? Eating is like totally one of my favourite pasttimes and sometimes I feel like a slave to it. I wish I could get it out of my head, or quit eating the way a smoker can quit smoking.
Enough of my thoughts for now!! Back to doing some work....
Dave and I are going to Stratford-upon-Avon this weekend to see the Royal Shakespeare Company perform Romeo and Juliet. We booked a room at a quaint b&b. And of course I've been hounding the internet for the best restaurants in the area. Dave and I really enjoy going out for a nice meal. I like to think I'm an amateur 'foodie'. Is that the correct term?
Anyways my point is that why can't I be doing lots of research of things to do in Stratford besides eating? Eating is like totally one of my favourite pasttimes and sometimes I feel like a slave to it. I wish I could get it out of my head, or quit eating the way a smoker can quit smoking.
Enough of my thoughts for now!! Back to doing some work....
Friday, 9 January 2009
Where I screw up
It's easy to talk about what you are doing right. You know, when you are working with 'the plan', doing the exercise, eating the right stuff. It's harder to confess when you aren't . When you blatantly know that you aren't.
Let me just say real quick the things that I know are stopping me from seeing the scale budge:
-red wine
-white wine
-cider (alcohol)
-chocolate
I like wine. My husband and I enjoy sharing a bottle of wine with dinner. Unfortunately at the moment we have a massive tin of chocolates in the house that his very sweet 85 year old grandma gave us for Christmas. During the day I do really well with my breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner. And then comes the choice. Would I like some wine or some chocolate. Or in my case recently, both. Each chocolate is about 50 calories. If I eat one, I want two at least. With wine, I at least want to share a bottle. So that's a good 200calories.
I know I'm going on and on. I know I have choices to make. I know that through making these choices I will either:
a.) see the me I want to see in May 2009
b.) be very dissappointed with the me I see in May 2009
May 2009 is when I'll be flying to Texas with my hubby and his brother. We'll be staying with my folks for a few days, then heading to Austin for one of my best friends weddings, then the group of us friends will be heading to the Frio River to float and camp for the week. I'm fine with being in a one-piece suit, but I at least want to look decent in it.
Right now all my flab centers around my middle region. I'm very much an apple shape. The more my weight goes up, the bigger my waistline. I've always had decent legs, and when I'm doing well, my legs are damn hot. I want damn hot legs in May.
So lay off the wine and chocolate, Julie!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know, I know.....
Let me just say real quick the things that I know are stopping me from seeing the scale budge:
-red wine
-white wine
-cider (alcohol)
-chocolate
I like wine. My husband and I enjoy sharing a bottle of wine with dinner. Unfortunately at the moment we have a massive tin of chocolates in the house that his very sweet 85 year old grandma gave us for Christmas. During the day I do really well with my breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner. And then comes the choice. Would I like some wine or some chocolate. Or in my case recently, both. Each chocolate is about 50 calories. If I eat one, I want two at least. With wine, I at least want to share a bottle. So that's a good 200calories.
I know I'm going on and on. I know I have choices to make. I know that through making these choices I will either:
a.) see the me I want to see in May 2009
b.) be very dissappointed with the me I see in May 2009
May 2009 is when I'll be flying to Texas with my hubby and his brother. We'll be staying with my folks for a few days, then heading to Austin for one of my best friends weddings, then the group of us friends will be heading to the Frio River to float and camp for the week. I'm fine with being in a one-piece suit, but I at least want to look decent in it.
Right now all my flab centers around my middle region. I'm very much an apple shape. The more my weight goes up, the bigger my waistline. I've always had decent legs, and when I'm doing well, my legs are damn hot. I want damn hot legs in May.
So lay off the wine and chocolate, Julie!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know, I know.....
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
Food Journal day 2
A look into my Tuesday diet & exercise and some thoughts....
Snack
Carrot sticks: 30Lunch
Taco soup: 400Snack
Apple: 50Dinner
Tofu and vegetable stir fry: 400Rice: 190
Dessert
Four chocolate caramels (from the blue Roses tin): 200 (?!!!!)
Total: 1470 calories
Water: 3 Liters
Exercise: 1 hour low-impact aerobics (about 400ish calories burned)
Thoughts........
Those darn chocolate caramels I intended to have them as dessert, but as my husband was doing a late workout with a friend, I didn't find out til I was home that we wouldn't be eating til late (about 9:30pm). I'm really trying to be disciplined about no more food after 8ish. I guess this was one of those exceptions. Anyways I got home around 7 after a workout myself and felt really hungry. I ate an apple. I chopped veggies for the stirfry. I read. I watched the True Hollywood Story of America's Next Top Model---and that was clearly my trigger to open the tin of chocolates and pull out my favourite one...four times.
Onwards and upwards.
Water: 3 Liters
Exercise: 1 hour low-impact aerobics (about 400ish calories burned)
Thoughts........
Those darn chocolate caramels I intended to have them as dessert, but as my husband was doing a late workout with a friend, I didn't find out til I was home that we wouldn't be eating til late (about 9:30pm). I'm really trying to be disciplined about no more food after 8ish. I guess this was one of those exceptions. Anyways I got home around 7 after a workout myself and felt really hungry. I ate an apple. I chopped veggies for the stirfry. I read. I watched the True Hollywood Story of America's Next Top Model---and that was clearly my trigger to open the tin of chocolates and pull out my favourite one...four times.
Onwards and upwards.
Marlaine83 on YouTube
I made a YouTube video last night that I've been intending on making for ages. I've been watching all the end of '08 videos and all the New Year's resolution ones. I find that my video-making tends to be very sporadic. I'll think about things for weeks and think, I really need to do a vlog about this. But then it passes and I never do. Then one night I feel a bit bored and turn the camera on and let it all out. If I'm patient enough afterward I'll do editing.
When I first found YouTube was in 2006. I was watching the LonelyGirl series. I was totally sucked in. I wanted to find other vloggers (at the time no one knew that LG wasn't legit). I came across Renetto and loved him. I was looking through his favorited videos and saw one by a girl calling herself faintstarlite. I watched the video Renetto had favorited, then found myself at faintstarlite's channel and got hooked into her Weight Watchers vlogging.
Esther (faintstarlite) and I had similar stories...Esther was living in England and I was in Texas, Esther's boyfriend was from states though so they were doing the long distance thing during the same time that my Dave and I were doing it. My first ever video was a video response to Esther, where I talked about how similar our situations were, and also how she had inspired me to join and vlog my way through it. And so Marlaine83 was born---actually it's a username I've used for multiple sites for years and years (my middle name and the year I was born).
It was the early days of gut2cut and it was a really tight community. I began getting subscribers here and there, but it wasn't until I made a video response to faintstarlite about the health care system in America that I got my first ever wave of subscribers. That was a bit surreal. Plus I didn't think it was a very good vlog I made anyways!
Anyways I've taken my occasional hiatus from YouTube, always coming back to find the new 'it' crowd. Does that make sense without sounding mean or rude? I don't intend it to. But there's always the next big thing in the weight loss community on YouTube. Esther was it for awhile. A lot of people were affected in a deep way by her. Stacy, JustLoseItNow, has been another person who has been a staple to the community. I suppose at the moment it's this AntiShay, alifelessboring, tbossbone triumvirate that has formed, and of course Weight Loss Losers that has formed out of those friendships. And those vloggers have done quite a bit of inspiring!
People have been making mention to 'drama' in the community. I'll be the first one to stick my hand up in the air and say I'm a bit confused as to what it's about?! I'd imagine maybe there's a bit of a power struggle people are having? I'm not sure. Anyways this community is SO fluid, it changes every day with people coming to the site and finding other like-minded people. And with so many people, so many strong personalities and opinions, I suppose divide is a common thing. Just part of the natural progression.
Trboh has been such a father figure to so many in the weight loss community, and I'm thrilled to see him and his 'life boat' theory take to the water (he he, yay for my pun!) TeamWeights and it's philosophy and leadership is sure to help a certain kind of person looking for support. The same with WeightLossLosers, and hopefully Gut2Cut can extend a hand too (even with Eric going MIA).
This is enough from me for now. I'll post my food and calories later. Oh YouTube. Can't live without ya.
When I first found YouTube was in 2006. I was watching the LonelyGirl series. I was totally sucked in. I wanted to find other vloggers (at the time no one knew that LG wasn't legit). I came across Renetto and loved him. I was looking through his favorited videos and saw one by a girl calling herself faintstarlite. I watched the video Renetto had favorited, then found myself at faintstarlite's channel and got hooked into her Weight Watchers vlogging.
Esther (faintstarlite) and I had similar stories...Esther was living in England and I was in Texas, Esther's boyfriend was from states though so they were doing the long distance thing during the same time that my Dave and I were doing it. My first ever video was a video response to Esther, where I talked about how similar our situations were, and also how she had inspired me to join and vlog my way through it. And so Marlaine83 was born---actually it's a username I've used for multiple sites for years and years (my middle name and the year I was born).
It was the early days of gut2cut and it was a really tight community. I began getting subscribers here and there, but it wasn't until I made a video response to faintstarlite about the health care system in America that I got my first ever wave of subscribers. That was a bit surreal. Plus I didn't think it was a very good vlog I made anyways!
Anyways I've taken my occasional hiatus from YouTube, always coming back to find the new 'it' crowd. Does that make sense without sounding mean or rude? I don't intend it to. But there's always the next big thing in the weight loss community on YouTube. Esther was it for awhile. A lot of people were affected in a deep way by her. Stacy, JustLoseItNow, has been another person who has been a staple to the community. I suppose at the moment it's this AntiShay, alifelessboring, tbossbone triumvirate that has formed, and of course Weight Loss Losers that has formed out of those friendships. And those vloggers have done quite a bit of inspiring!
People have been making mention to 'drama' in the community. I'll be the first one to stick my hand up in the air and say I'm a bit confused as to what it's about?! I'd imagine maybe there's a bit of a power struggle people are having? I'm not sure. Anyways this community is SO fluid, it changes every day with people coming to the site and finding other like-minded people. And with so many people, so many strong personalities and opinions, I suppose divide is a common thing. Just part of the natural progression.
Trboh has been such a father figure to so many in the weight loss community, and I'm thrilled to see him and his 'life boat' theory take to the water (he he, yay for my pun!) TeamWeights and it's philosophy and leadership is sure to help a certain kind of person looking for support. The same with WeightLossLosers, and hopefully Gut2Cut can extend a hand too (even with Eric going MIA).
This is enough from me for now. I'll post my food and calories later. Oh YouTube. Can't live without ya.
Monday, 5 January 2009
food journal no. 1
I need a place to journal my food. And other things too, but for right now definitely my food...
Breakfast
30g porridge w/150ml skimmed milk: 170 calories
10g brown sugar: 30 calories
Lunch
Homemade vegetable soup (carrots, onions, parnsips, potatoes, coriander): 200 calories
Snack
Sesame Ryvita: 30 calories
Laughing Cow Extra Light Cheese: 20 calories
Dinner
2 Sainsbury's good for you fishcakes: 400 calories
300g baked potato w/ flora and salt: 300 calories
Sauteed aubergine with garlic, chilli flakes, olive oil: 200 calories
Total: 1350 calories
Thoughts...
Not a bad day, although I really should have eaten more calories during while at work. I was starving when I got home. Even just an apple would have made such a difference. The other thing I need to fess up to is the light mayo and ketchup I had with my fishcakes. I have a serious problem with sauces like that. I really need to get a grip on this. Without thinking, I probably had 150 calories in sauces, which essentially brings me to a total of 1500 calories.
I feel like 1500 calories is acceptable if I'm doing some form of exercise, but I didn't today. I should really aim for 1200 calorie days when I'm not doing anything. Tomorrow I've got my aerobics class and I'll definitely be eating a bit more to reflect that. I'm going to take a heartier soup for lunch, plus take an apple and some carrots.
This is enough for now I think. I'll journal about my 'secret weigh-ins' another time. I think it's important for me to express how I feel about them.
Breakfast
30g porridge w/150ml skimmed milk: 170 calories
10g brown sugar: 30 calories
Lunch
Homemade vegetable soup (carrots, onions, parnsips, potatoes, coriander): 200 calories
Snack
Sesame Ryvita: 30 calories
Laughing Cow Extra Light Cheese: 20 calories
Dinner
2 Sainsbury's good for you fishcakes: 400 calories
300g baked potato w/ flora and salt: 300 calories
Sauteed aubergine with garlic, chilli flakes, olive oil: 200 calories
Total: 1350 calories
Thoughts...
Not a bad day, although I really should have eaten more calories during while at work. I was starving when I got home. Even just an apple would have made such a difference. The other thing I need to fess up to is the light mayo and ketchup I had with my fishcakes. I have a serious problem with sauces like that. I really need to get a grip on this. Without thinking, I probably had 150 calories in sauces, which essentially brings me to a total of 1500 calories.
I feel like 1500 calories is acceptable if I'm doing some form of exercise, but I didn't today. I should really aim for 1200 calorie days when I'm not doing anything. Tomorrow I've got my aerobics class and I'll definitely be eating a bit more to reflect that. I'm going to take a heartier soup for lunch, plus take an apple and some carrots.
This is enough for now I think. I'll journal about my 'secret weigh-ins' another time. I think it's important for me to express how I feel about them.
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